Didn’t This Day Already Happen….?

9 06 2010

OF COARSE IT DID…..I live in groundhog day!  This morning, as most mornings starts off with me wanting or planning to conquer the world…until my coffe wears off and I get hungry, then it’s over!  Not much NEW going on in my world, only that I am trying to shed the obesity pregnancy pounds that have I’ve been carrying on me for an almost extra year, which will be offical this time next month.

Today I watched GMA..which is my fav, and this woman who was the former editor of some Home and Garden magazine, says that her life was shattered when she lost her job…and it changed her life.  Really!  I want to hear about how she survived by the lost of income, did she almost face foreclosure, or car reprossesion, real stuff like that.  It might be in her book, but my guess is she had $$$$ and she was probaly just devastated by not having a job.  I would like to have some reasurrance that if I decided to leave my NOW job could I make it without going thru that hardship.  Let’s face it, she WAS the former editor of some magazine so she probaly had friends in high places.  I’m a generic author who writes but if you have no “high in the sky ” friends it’s hard to get an agent or even published, so of coarse she could actually get a book published and still pay her bills.  What do you think?

On another note…It’s been hard for me to consistantly be kind to myself.  Doing something for myself each day or week.  Like doing my hair, brushing my teeth, ironing my clothes…luxuries like that.  Is that why I feel like a turd?, because I never include me.  I don’t have time to loose weight, to take a long bath, to go to the bathroom for more than 5 mintues without the babies, the dog, my 4yr old’s questions.  No one told me when you became a mother all those things would go down the drain!  You think if you did hear of it from someone else or even saw a former foxy lady who became a mom and went down hill, you would say to yourself “how did she JUST let herself go?”.  When I look in the mirror I can see why.


Up Agianst My Will!

7 06 2010

  Well it’s mintues away from three ‘am as I begin this post.  Never did I predict to be up writing at this moment…since my early morning plans are ruined because I’m up now I guess it would be time to do this.  I’d planned to start a little bit of a exercise/me time regamine/taking care of mom thing for myself……maybe wake up about 6ish and take a bike ride on a trail, but all those dreams are shattered for this morning because I’m up with my 4yr old who is practically  screaming through the house about being scared of the dark.  She and her younger sister, my 11mo old, have just offically moved into their new room and it’s a bit strange to her I guess, especially how she was test driving the top bunk but it seemed to be more than she ..or even I can handle.  I had delayed about a week to actually put her sister’s crib into the new room, partially because she is noisey and the other, because I was being lazy.  As she screamed, two diffrent times, I kept telling her to calm down and PLEASE don’t wake up her sister…….She’s more than a bit of a drama queen and proceeded to sob, as her baby sister sat up in confusion on both attempts to put her back to sleep.  So I dragged the lighted coil rope thing , plugged it up, and put it under the bunk beds so that it wouldn’t be too overwhelming…you would think that was enough, but of coarse not!   She sobbed some more, I agian pleded with her about waking her sister, as she uttered “I’m scared, I want to watch tv”.  I then lost my cool…cause there goes my plans.  A dream deffered!  Knowing I need to lose a couple..two..three pounds because I’m feeling a bit old in the joints.

I gained 60lbs with this last pregnancy , and let me tell ya,it’s easy to gain than lose.  I nearly met my goal before I became pregnant, but those days seem far, far and away now because I have been trying multiple things since pretty much the day she was born…..and NOTHING!!!! Oh don’t mind me, I have a road map of delimas.  I know if I don’t get some sleep soon I will be a crabby patty in the other part of the morning!

It’s Thursday Agian!

3 06 2010

  What a week….I can say it only took one day at a time and a lot of deep breaths to finally get here, oh yeah let’s not forget we had a Monday which really helped.  I think this weekend I might check out completely, give my kids away and play hokey from reality….sounds like a party huh!  I’ll say the just I have to look foward to today is nap…which was already over by now, and my drama filled Real Housewives of New York, although I think New Jersey takes the cake because of that crazy Danielle who I once had sympathy for but since the light has been shed on her I’m having other thoughts.